(November 14th) This morning I got the news that Rose passed away. You may remember Rose from my post of August 31, 2011 entitled “Perseverance”. Rose, an abandoned, gravely ill 13 year old girl, was a patient a Hopital Albert Schweitzer in Haiti, while I was there shooting an assignment. Before reading further you might want to go back and read “Perseverance” in order to understand this story in the context of the bigger picture. Click here to read the prior post “Perseverance”
Over the years, while covering natural disasters like the 2004 Indian ocean tsunami and photographing things like HIV Aids and human trafficking for my NGO clients, I’ve seen my fair share of pain and suffering and have been “touched” by many individuals and their stories, and often times, I can’t keep them off of my mind. Rose was one of those people. For whatever reason, Rose really touched my heart. She seemed so lonely, with no family or friends visiting her. I could see that Rose struggled each time while trying to breath, she was so frail; yet I could see that she was determined to survive.
After finishing my photography for Hopital Albert Schweitzer, I left Haiti, but I couldn’t stop thinking about Rose, so I sent an email to a Physical therapist named Shiuan, who I had met during my stay at Alumni House at HAS. Shiuan was volunteering for Hopital Albert Schweitzer for a few weeks and so I knew that she was still there. On September 3rd, I sent Shiuan the following email…
I hope your time at H.A.S is going well. Please say hi to Ben and Susan and Wiji and everyone else for me.
Shiuan, if you don’t mind, please ask Ben to send me an email, so that I have his email address, as I seem to have lost it.
And last but not least, if you could go check on Rose; the skeletal 13-year-old abandoned girl with TB and give me a status update, I would be very appreciative. I can’t stop thinking about her.
Thanks,
Karl”
“I got to see Rose briefly today and got the update from Dr. Andreas and Dr. Tobias. Apparently the story is that she only has a grandmother to care for her. Dr. Andreas had seen her 5 times before. Every time the hospital would help get rid of the excess edema/swelling from around her heart, she would go home and it would come back again due to lack of proper care. Currently her abdomen is enlarged (from ascities, a form of liver failure) and she probably doesn’t look any better than when you last saw her. I am sorry I don’t have better news for you Karl, I think you realized way back when that prognosis was poor. I will keep an eye on her and try to visit with her when I can and for as long as I’m here. “
In early October Shiuan left Hoptial Albert Schweitzer to return home, on Oct 7 she emailed me…
“Hi Karl, hope you are doing well! I just got home last night and I’m already missing Haiti and everybody I met! I was able to get a last update on Rose before I left. She is about the same, not worse, not better. Her heart and liver are still failing but you have to know that she is being well taken care of. The PTs in the hospital have been keeping watch, taking her to the bathroom twice a day, and getting her food.”
I was in India when I received Shiuan’s next email. I guess that Shiuan was so touched by her experience of volunteering at HAS that she had arranged a local fund raising dinner party in Colorado. At that dinner party was Alan, another Physical Therapist who was volunteering at HAS. Alan had some news about Rose that she then shared with me in the following email.
“Hi Karl, I hope you are well! I can’t believe technology allows you to blog on a train in India! We had a successful Haiti Night to fundraise for HAS and thanks again for allowing us use your beautiful photos to drive the point home!
Do you remember Alain? PT from Monterey? He actually came to Colorado for the Haiti night. We got to talking and found out Rose had passed away the last week in September. I don’t know if you knew….sorry I don’t have better news to report…Shiuan”.
I also received this email from Mary, a Physical Therapist who was working at HAS while I was there. She wrote….
Hi Karl – you probably don’t remember me and you don’t really have to – just found your business card in my wallet while scrounging for something else. I am not even sure that i haven’t already told you this- but i think you won’t mind hearing it twice.
All the physical therapists and some of the doctors put in money to pay for a helper for rose her last three weeks – it was our cook Edit – she is fantastic and doesn”t take no for an answer – she also has 2 girls a little younger than Rose was – she visited each day – gave Rose a bath, brought her food she wanted and liked and had her girls and their friends visit her – she took her outside and generally made her life so much better – she is a wonderful lady – i thought you might like to know that she wasn’t alone and was well cared for till the end –
your new photos are lovely and strong and inspiring – glad someone is capable of this gift
take care – am hoping to get back to Haiti in a month or two – our teaching program has been suspended since so many people are being laid off, the hospital didn’t feel they could train new people. there are always avenues there –
take care – it was good to spend some time with you there —Mary Christman PT
Shiuan’s email wasn’t a surprise to me; in fact, I had never really expected to hear that Rose would have survived a week after I left, much less almost a month.
Now, I’ve never told anyone this…not even Shiuan, and I’m not telling you in an attempt to be self-serving, but rather because I think it’s an important lesson…it was for me. If I hadn’t followed through on the gut reaction I had in Haiti, I would be kicking myself today.
It seemed obvious to me that Rose’s days were numbered. Seeing her struggling so hard, yet not having any family or friends visit her made me think that I should do something nice for her; something to help lift her spirits; and that I should do it immediately.
So, after finishing my photography one afternoon at the hospital, with $20 in my hand, I walked down to the outdoor market which is haphazardly set up in a river-bed a few hundred meters from the hospital entrance. There, I purchased Rosa a second hand dress, three blouses, a skirt, 3 brand new pairs of underwear, some perfumed soap, a bottle of skin lotion and some shampoo. Then, I found some fruits, crackers, and candy and then, with the last two dollars, I bought 2 large plastic bowls.
I arranged everything in the two colorful baskets and brought them to Rose’s room. When I arrived to deliver everything, Rose was struggling to breathe and very lethargic, but she acknowledged the gifts and I think she even, almost smiled.
Later on that evening, I returned to the hospital to check on Rose. When I walked past her room, I saw that she had re-arranged all the items neatly around herself.
What I did for Rose was for the most part, “symbolic” and I don’t need praise or credit for it. The real praise and credit goes to the doctors, nurses, donors and volunteers like Shiuan who keep Hopital Albert Schweitzer going. Although Rose had no money, the staff and volunteers at Hopital Albert Schweitzer cared for her; in those, her final days. Hopital Albert Schweitzer has been taking care of patients like Rose, every day since 1956.
I shudder to think what Rose’s last days would have been like without Hopital Albert Schweitzer.
So, perhaps the moral of this story is… sometimes we think that our efforts or our donations might not make a difference…but, go with your gut, because they do…they really do….and for me, Rose, is only the most recent example of that fact.
If you’d like to help someone like Rose, donate to Hôpital Albert Schweitzer Haiti or to your favorite charity. You can make a difference in someone’s life.
Dear Karl, I am certain that with Rose’s passing you will not forget her. She brought a part of you with her. So do all the people we meet in our lives. Thank you for sharing this personal story. Rose, I am sure, was thankful to all these nurses and doctors at the Albert S. Hospital. She also, at times, smiled when she remembered that man with the cameras hanging from his hips carrying colorful clothing and fruits. Good tidings. C*
Great story.. moving photos and personal gesture..
One Freudian slip in there (“I shutter at the thought”
There’s the photographer in you.
Shudder, shutter… the same for a photographer
Susan Woog Wagner
P.S. I would LOVE to have the opportunity to help there as a photographer as well.. any way I can be your assistant on the next shoot?
Beautiful story from a beautiful human being. Your compassion is as remarkable as is your work, Karl!
Rona
Beautifully told by a man with a huge heart. Thank you for sharing Rose’s story and that of the men and women of the HAS Hosptial. A story for all of us to ponder ….. Lisa
Thanks for the pictures Karl. Rose’s story is one that is often repeated around the world and yet for those of us in the medical community it directly touches our hearts. Not one of us can save everyone we come in contact with, but each of us must strive to do our best for them as you have. Take comfort in having done your best to bring joy and comfort even if brief and in the knowledge that it always makes a difference even if it doesn’t always bring long term survival.
Thomas J. A. Lehman MD
Chief, Division of Pediatric Rheumatology
Hospital for Special Surgery, and
Professor of Clinical Pediatrics Weill Medical Center
Cornell University
WOW Karl…as usual, when looking at your work, I have absolutely nothing to say; the images are so powerful and the story so tragic it’s just overwhelming.
I was very glad to hear you say that even doing what seems like a small thing to us, can touch someone, like Rose, so deeply and mean so much to them. That’s how I felt on your Cambodia Workshop with the women I met in Siem Reap in my SoundSlides piece. I wonder if they are alright, I hope they will be O.K.. Reading your piece made me feel a little better about the little I did for them and I do remember how overwhelmingly happy they were when they got the bikes and rice as they had expected nothing. It’s hard not to beat oneself up when you see such injustice, so thank you for honestly letting us know how you felt about your gift, it certainly helped me.
Jenny
It’s sad, touching and beautiful at the same time. Thanks for sharing your feelings Karl.
Thank you for the reminder to remain open to those we encounter. It would be easy to believe that Rose didn’t offer much to the world in her final days. In reality, she changed you… and you allowed that change to ripple out to us. Powerful.
Very touching and your pictures even say way more than you did. All the best as you touch more lives. I wish we all could take the time to make a difference in someone else’s life positively too…
I can see your soul in these photographs.